SPECIAL POST~

hahahahaha
today, SS501's Eternal Center turns 24 according to Korean ageee.
simply, he is now 23~!

so,

메롱~!

what happen this week eh?
ohhhh~

on wednesday, i was superrr bored at home.
so i decided to have lunch with mum and then head down to JP.
because i just got myself new Converse High Cuts, haha,
suddenly i feel so rich after working~
anywayy, i wanted to get shoelacesss for my dear.
haha, so i was walking around,thinking what else to buy.
window shop and stop by a couple of shops.
OMO~
converse is selling this high cuts that i really waaaant~
but seriously,its costlyyy.
got to work harder.
wait, i still need to set money aside fr my new school term.
uniforms, textbooks etc.
ahhhhh sheeeeesh~
anyway,i was looking for BIGBANG'S albuuum~
and after rummaging through almost all VCD shops in JP,
i finally found it.
guess where?
CD RAMA~
haha,should have looked for it there in th first placeeee.
and i swearrrr i was superr elated when i saw it,
that i kindda shrieked(?)
well,kind of to myself, but i still got those stares from people.
aigoooo~
then i came across JJ Lin's new album.
because i kindda got myself addicted to However Many Hundred Days sung by him~
any hooo, i was short of cash,and dont want to use my cardd because i withdrawn money fr th week alrd, so i got myself to a dilemma.

haha, seriously, it was like a thought process there and then.
so i got myselfff BIGBANG's album because JJ Lin album can be found anywhere
and i've been having sleepless nights thinking about th album.

i head of to get myself headbands then.
head homeeee.
so i was a happy girl~

fridayy,mum was on MC.
so she brought me to SHATEC to settle my first term fees
and sign th contract~
after that, we went jalanjalaaaan again.
haha,i was on off on that dayyy.
got myself socks,to where with my new converseeee~
then mum headed to Charles and Keith to get new shoes.
i was looking ard and found a superrrrr neat purse.
because i need a new one,seriously.
i got one.
haha, its purpleeee and it has got blingblings~
i likeeee.
head of to Parklane mall after that for our facial appointment.
gahhh~ its been sooo loooong~!
dinner at Pastamania,fr th sake of completing th card thingyyy~

then on fridayy itself, my NEW WHITE AUDIO TECH headphones brokeeedownnn.
i was devastatedddd.
haha,i loove headphones,i dont know whyy.
so on saturday, after dinner at JP, i went to bought new ones.
this time its audio tech red one.
sheeeesh~
and got my ipodddd bby new caseee~
hahaha.

i sound spoilt,but trust me,im spending my own moneyyy fr myself.
and yes, i do save up~

and yesterday,daddy bought me and sis Levis.
im contented now.

so much for what happens this week~
ohh,i 've been very active in forums nowadays.

yes, dear me has started to join forums to seize boredom and make new friends of same interests.
some forums im active on

SG TRIPLE S
speaking of which, my MEMBERSHIP PACK from them arrived. th tee and capp was niceee. im waiting fr th nametags or card or whatever. still worth paying for and worth joining. its sad SS501 are not having their PERSONA @ SG this year. i realllllllyyyy hope they will comeeee anytimeeee. dengan semangat nya, i put aside part of my pay to pay fr concert tickets to any Asian Artist coming to singapore~ SS501 as a priorityyy~ohhh, their PERSONA at Bangkok was awesomeee~ watch some Fancams, they really majuu alrd uh. v. near perfect uh. and they are having th ENCORE PERSONA SEOUL soooon~ if onlyy i got moolahh,i'll be there alrd uhh~

U-KISS, KISSME.SG
i kind of heard they are coming to Singapore. wahhhh~ and i think this group have strong bonds with fans~ i dont know why,but every time i come to that forum,theres always something that makes me like "ahhh,they know we exist" because they wear/use stuffs we gave them and give singapore fans their messages,like really fr us~ hahah,im honoured. ahhh~~!

C.N.BLUE SG
th fanclub just started so,its kind of having a nice start, neat. i should say.looking forward to projects and gatheringsss then. well, they are still new, but who cares?and they might be coming to SG~ but its all not confirm,so lets not put my hopes up highhh~

did yoooo knowwww?
im going to HONG KONG on my next holidayyyy~!
marchhhhhh 9th i thinkkkk~
ahhh~ cnt waitttt~

this is sidetrack.
i just feel like venting this out.
because i cannot stand it keeping any longer.
i mean,th thought of it just pissed me off.
i know this is OLD storyyy but.
aiyaaa~ yoo know la that feeling,you cant let go unless to let it out.


PLEASE NOTE: there IS a difference in having a crush on someone and not wanting to get myself in a relationship oke? its completely different~
PLEASE TAKE NOTE: i SAID i DONT want to get myself involve in relationships at th moment and not i DONT want to like any guys at th moment. i am sure i said that because i said that i dozen times to people,fr god's sakeee~
PLEASE KINDLY TAKE NOTE: i have make things clear with you when we first talk that, we are MERE friends. friends i make at th moment are just as platonic friends relationship. if you want any special treatment or more than just friends,maybe you should just give it up. im looking fr FRIENDSHIP here and not RELATIONSHIP.
PLEASE DO KINDLY TAKE NOTE: yes,i have male best friends. so what? it isnt wrong right? NOTHING in th law of Singapore disallow that. if you want to be jealous,whats th point? we are just friends. and th only reason why i talk to them and treat them nice, because they treat me nice and they deserve it plus,they are worthy enough fr me to call bestfriends. i know them fr quite a long time,so isnt it weird to suddenly NOT talk to them. THINK.
PLEASE ALSO DO KINDLY TAKE NOTE: nobody.nobody including you except fr my parents have authority over me and my freedom. even my parents allow me great share of freedom. so you are in NO position to tell me off over something i believe in and over something im NOT at all at fault at. so i would GREATLY appreciate it if you would stop calling me a liar. because i am not. its you who got th facts WRONG. and im not a liar,mind you. my parent raised me well so i tell th truth.
so,think before you act. because you might regret,i've given you a chance to get to know me. and you expect me to come searching fr you first? i have things to be done. plus, i entertain those who are worthy of my attention. well,thats everyone. but you just blew it off. too baddd~ again,think before you react,because you really hurt me bad. a n w, thnks alot fr telling me off because i dont really deserve it.

nurulhannaaaaa is backkkkkkk~! ^^




i know its been a while since i last update this blog.
th last time was a month ago perhaps?
haha, not that many stop by my blog.
so,honestly i dont really care that much.
but im back now.
literally back.
both ways.
back to blogging
though i might not be updating every single seconds oof my life.
but i will update ocassionally~
and im back to my own happy self now.

im stronger now.
no,seriously.
headstrong.
but still sad dramas makes me cry.

i stop telling stories becaue.
i faced a major set back in my life.
it felt like as if i hit rock bottom in life.
plus th pressure i received from people around me.
its really depressing.

that time, i really see my self going nowhere in life.
like as if all th opportunities th world offer me
just shut itself close.
and i dont even get a chance to actually show my self.
my true potential.

people just look down on me like as if
i cannot make it happen in life.
but i know some how, i will make it big.
prove them wrong.
life will lead me somewhere.
im just sure that will happen.

i totally shut myself from th outside world.
like as if every single soul on earth just found out that i failed.
i locked myself out fr almost a week after that.
i didnt blog, didnt facebooked.
all because i was jealous of my friends,of people who made it somewhere.
at least.
yea, i know im kindda being a bitch dealing with these situations.
seriously, try putting yrself in my shoes.
i didnt even go out, because im really afraid og meeting
someone i know,and them asking me about it.
so, i totally cut off all th ties i had with my life.
my eyes had never been that painful for such a long time.
th whole week,i did nothing but mourn over it.
i chuck everything about it aside.

it feels like depression.

it felt like a bad dream.
like a nightmare,that i will somehow wake up from.
but it isnt.

those times, my sister was th one next to me.
encouraging me, pulling me up.
making me believe in my dreams back again.

and at that point of time.
i found how amazing my religion was.
not that i had turn pious or anything.
but only now, i realised what people meant by,
at times when they fail, that is when they found god.
well somehting like that.
so i found him.
i seek to him.

it really felt like as if he hears every single word i said.
and that he is consoling me somehow.
you know, when you feel it.
its just so soothing.
like he heard my prayers,
he gave me strength.
he gave me courage to just stand up and face it.

because somehow,
i got to face th truth somehow.

th feeling of rejoicing after you fall.
standing back up.
facing th world.

it felt good.
really good.

im stronger now.

thennn came a really good news.
when i got back up.
>_< I GOT INTO SHATEC~!
th school of my dreams.
god must have heard my prayers.
hahahaha.

it was unbelievable news fr me.
a gift from god.
or like sofiaaa said,
'a blessing in disguise'

so, i was preparing to go Malaysia Terengganu.
four days ago,when my dad came home,and told me i got a letter from SHATEC.
myt heart beats super fast.
and i was super anxious that i tore th entire envelope.
haha,seriously.

th first few line caught my eye.

"Dear Ms. Syarifah Azrinatul Nurulhanna,
We are pleased to offer you a placement in Diploma in Pastry and Baking programme commencing on 12 April 2010."

i was elated.
no no.
better than elated.
better than being happy becaue th guy of my dreams proposed to be.
not that i felt like that before.
but, you get what i mean right?!

hahaha, so im at SHATEC.
pursuing a one and a half year of studies to become a Pastry Chef.
so if all goes well, my course will end 03 October 2011.
hahahahaha~! i finish school faster than my friendssss~!
really looking forward to that.
hahahha, lets just push th idea of afraid of beong a loner aside okee? ^^

whats new?

ohhh,
i got myself albums~!

2PM, 01:59 PM
SHINee, Year Of Us
SS501, Rebirth Special Collection
G-Dragon, Heartbreaker
BIG BANG, Big Show 2009

hahaha, im a happy girl.
minus th fact that i splurge on my two month payyyy~

hahaha, it was worth it.
puls i got myself an

iPOD NANO 5th GENERATION
8GB ,purpleeeeee~!

with second payyyy~
haha, but im a happy girl.

ohhh, i cut my hair short.
with many layers.
told th hairdresser to add volume to my hair,and make it short.
whoaaaaaa
th outcome was
^0^

but now its long, so its getting a bit messy for me.
hahha, i still like my new hair~
long gone were th days i have longlonglong hair
that people really love.
but im gonna keep this one long


i miss my girlfriends so much.
and i hope th REUNION plus Azlin's birthday will happen
haha im really looking forward to 24thFeb laterrr~

ohhh,and i changed my blog songggggg~!
G-DRAGON 파이팅~!
im done hereeee peopleeee~!